Trust  
 09-22-2024: Who is in control of my life? I like to think I am. That’s just not reality. The tighter I try to hold on, the more my grip loosens. Only recently have I learned that I am the one who needs to be gripped – by the Holy Spirit. What does it mean to invite the spirit of God to control everything I think, say, and do. It seems impossible. And it is – without surrender. My strong will helped me to survive. My overindulged “will” must surrender to the one who can create peace, joy, and self-control in my life. I know that to surrender, I must trust. Well, to put it simply, I have no idea how to. It is something I have NEVER completely done with anyone or anything, including God. I can not continue to live as I am, so I pray God grants me grace to learn to trust. I will let you know how it goes.